I will be so unbelievably relieved when this year is over. Just trying to write a blog about how stressful this year has been is stressing me out. I can’t even put my feelings into thoughts let alone words. The last three years I have been able to do homework when I got home until 7:30 or 8 and be in bed by 9. Life was good then. I seemed to have plenty of time for all my studying and homework which allowed me to have an A average. The only class I struggled with was math but I always managed to get an A. I couldn’t stay up past 11 if I tried and I never needed to. This year, if I go to bed by 11 I consider it lucky and a good night sleep. No matter if I start my homework the second I get home and don’t take a break, I have so much every night that I cannot get it all done before 12. To me this is ridiculous because it is senior year! I don’t expect to not have to do anything to do, but this has been my hardest year by far. No matter how hard I try, I seem to not be able to keep track of everything or do well in my classes. It’s so frustrating because I am really hard on myself when it comes to school and as much as I would like to claim I don’t care and blow it off, I can’t. Some of the added stress might come from taking an extra science class instead of an elective. I decided to take anatomy because I thought it would look good for college transcripts to see I didn’t slack off during senior year. Also because everyone thought it would be an easy A so everyone took it. As it turns out it is one of the hardest classes I have this year. My job might also play a role in taking some of my time even though I mostly work weekends and usually only one school night a week. Or maybe it’s my Blue Gold responsibilities lately? I have to keep track of other people and myself. I don’t know what it is but I can’t keep up. I feel like as soon as I have to wake up I need to write to-do lists so I don’t forget. I feel like I don’t have time to talk to friends because I’m spending all night doing homework. The last couple of years have not been like this at all so it’s disappointing to expect a little bit of a break this year and end up having the most work yet. Hopefully next year, with only a few long classes, will leave me more time to relax and get organized. There are just not enough hours in the day.

Prom...

Prom is coming up and everyone is talking about it. I go along with it but I’m really dreading it. Dress shopping comes first, which I haven’t even started. Unlike some people I know, I am not willing to pay $500 for a dress that I will wear one night. Most of the prom dresses out there are hideous and extremely overpriced. Therefore, I will be putting off dress shopping till the last minute. Also, a more important aspect of prom is a date. I have no one in mind at all to go with which leaves me in a tricky situation. I would go alone if another friend did, but pretty much everyone has a date. Prom isn’t like homecoming where you can bring a random date. You usually want to bring someone you actually like and will have fun with. If I bring someone from outside of school who doesn’t know any of my friends I will have to spend my night entertaining him and I can’t hang out with friends. What if I ask and he says no? What if he goes and is really bored? How do you even ask a guy to prom?! Also if I bring someone from another school, do I have to pay for my dates ticket since I’m inviting him, even though I’m a girl? A dress and tickets alone are going to be ridiculous! Then there are also shoes, hair, and possibly a limo to pay for! It’s all too much. Hopefully all the money spent is worth it in the end. It is said that senior prom is way better than junior prom so maybe it will be worth it.

Saturday Detention?

Nowhere in the handbook does it say you will receive a 3 hour Saturday detention for being late to homeroom. I have not received one of these yet but if I do I will be furious. I don’t understand how the school can make up rules mid-year making kids come on a Saturday morning when detentions have always been served after school. Are they really allowed to do this? And are they allowed to tell you to “wear clothes you can get dirty”? They act like these kids are vandalizing the school and they need to clean it. They should stop obsessing over kids being 5 minutes late to school and start worrying about bigger problems like the fact that every student is failing phase 4 physics. I know a lot of the people that have received these detentions and none of them are bad students. They should focus more on the kids who are disrespectful and need the discipline. A lot of other things about our school annoy me, like the plasma TV’s that are showing up everywhere and the unnecessary trophy case. Most of the huge TV’s are never on or in pointless places. This money spent on these items is completely wasted in my opinion. Why don’t they use this for financial aid or better tools for the teachers. Is the huge TV outside the gym (that is hidden by the huge trophy case) really necessary to announce the scores of games? I don’t understand.  All I know is I can’t wait to graduate!